The last couple of months have been weird. I went from being really excited about social media and getting involved in the "yoga scene," whatever that means, to reading way too many articles, often conflicting, about what yoga is and should be, to feeling very burnt out and disenchanted with the whole thing and just taking a break from yoga all together. I've been finding it really difficult to be honest while also putting myself out there as a yoga teacher, particularly one that people think is a nice, decent person they want to learn from. Generally the other yoga teachers I encounter speak about gratitude, love, community, balance, and any other number of positive things and seem like really great, happy people. And that is cool, but that is so not me. I just can't. I mean, I get called a hater on an almost daily basis. And I also think that there are some pretty screwed up things with yoga/in the world of yoga. We have more or less culturally appropriated an awesome spiritual path and turned it into a way to get a nice ass. (oh - and more on the cultural appropriation of yoga here) Many yoga clothing companies cater only to a certain type of body. Yoga teachers in powerful positions take advantage of their students. Yoga teachers aren't paid enough and, honestly, there are probably too many of us. Yoga Journal sucks. And the practice seriously lacks diversity. (Can you see why I got a little burnt out?) Yoga can seem like it is "skinny, white and upper class" and sometimes I feel like I am part of the problem.
But! I also love yoga and think it is really valuable for all types of people. And there are tons of studios and people that are incredibly inclusive and mindful and inspiring and they give me my eternal optimism in spite of my totally cynical, skeptical, weird attitude about everything. I don't think yoga is a cure-all (although sometimes I think half-pigeon pose is...), but I do think it is an incredible tool of self-discovery that gets us through some tough shit sometimes. The world has a lot of problems and I strongly believe that yoga is not an escape from that, but teaches us how find the strength we need to deal with it and try to change it. I think even the smallest amount of awareness in your yoga class makes you more aware of the world around you and I think that is hugely powerful! So where the hell do I fit in? What do I do? How do I be?
I don't know, but from here on out I'm just trying to be more honest. I'm not faking gratitude to fit into this weird yoga world. I'm not going to be more outgoing, because I am really introverted and that is hard for me. I'm going to talk about chakras and Ayurveda more, because I love that shit! I'm going to change my bio on this website. I'm going to say what I think and not what I think I should say, boom! And since I've been thinking about it, I'm going to theme my yoga classes this month around honesty. This is Yogi Moss - no filter - we'll see what happens.
I'm also not editing this.