Being yourself should be the easiest thing in the world. After all, how are you not yourself?
"How am I not myself?" "How am I not myself?" Before falling into an "I Heart Huckabees" style existential crisis on non-duality, just think about it. In what ways do you not act like yourself? Have you said anything you didn't really believe lately? Have you dressed less fabulously in order to fit in? Have you not spoken your mind because you were afraid to say what you were really thinking?
We have all dialed it back, or remained silent, or said something we didn't mean in order to appease others or to skate by unnoticed. Because sometimes it is easier to not be yourself.
And that really sucks.
Especially since many of the people we love the most, we love because they are so unabashedly and unapologetically existing as the freaks they are!
I've spent a lot of time in my life pretending. Pretending to like certain music, or that I love to travel, or that I'm practical, or that I don't love trendy fashion items. Pretending that I am one way when really I am another because, again, sometimes it is easier to not be yourself. Sometimes it is easier just to blend in.
The glorious thing about growing up, though, is that there is a point where it actually becomes harder to not be yourself. There is a point where you have to let all the shit go, let your guard down, and expose yourself to the world because not doing so will weigh you down and make you implode. You find yourself saying things like "Why did I say that?" or "I didn't even mean that!" because your letting some weird inauthentic part of your ego do the talking for you.
There is a point where being inauthentic feels really really crappy and so you just say "Screw it! I'm letting my freak flag fly!"
If there is anything I'm looking forward to in 2015 it is to allow myself be more authentic and to encourage my friends to do the same.
To hell with the naysayers, and haters, and assholes, and the people who just don't get that being weird isn't really that weird.
Here's to not hiding or imitating others. To not letting other people dictate how we dress ourselves, or behave, or talk. Here's to being loud and crazy, or quiet and introverted, or different, or the same and never apologizing for it.
Here's to being our weirdo selves!