I remember asking my mom if I was outgoing at a young age - probably 6 or 7. (As an aside, I also remember asking on numerous occasions if I had long legs. That is too young to be thinking the ideal woman had legs and personality for days). Even at that age "being outgoing" was something I knew had value. It meant I had a good personality. So I tried it. It felt weird. Still does.
I'm not outgoing and I've been called unfriendly, weird, anti-social, and boring because of it more times than I can count. Why am I telling you this? Because as much as I embrace who I am - this is still something I struggle with from time to time. In order to move up at a job, or to excitedly promote and start a business, or even to speak authoritatively on a topic - people expect you to be extroverted. People even equate extroversion with intelligence. Ugh! (I know how to read! I read that in a book! It's called - "Quiet: The power of Introverts in a World that can't Stop Talking") In a world that favors extroverts it can be hard for an introvert to be noticed. And as I begin on a journey to try to grow professionally and create a strong yoga teaching business - that makes me really frustrated!
I sort of want to stop there. A vent with no conclusion. But I think there should probably be a point to what I'm saying since there so often isn't. I guess the point is this. It's frustrating to try and do what you want and put yourself out there when, by your nature, you just want to work hard and hope somebody notices. Forcing myself to write a blog, or whatever, is hard. Trying to convince people that I know what I'm talking about without having to sell myself is hard. Taking steps forward, quietly, is hard. And sometimes I wish I could just be outgoing! But mostly I just want to sit at home and do a puzzle, And learn. And write. And grow. And not tell anybody about it. Am I Outgoing? No. Should I have to be? No. (That was the point, the most valuable point I think. No. you shouldn't have be!) Am I going to try to be? No. I'm going to do a puzzle.